dis is shorter than the previous post.

i keep struggling with power fantasies a lot. i think a lot about myself being much more powerful than i really am and being able to help steer humanity into better ways. however, all i can really do is entertain and ocasionally offend. i just wish i could teach people how to not be offended by others and to not have cruel desires. i feel like i have no power and that i only have the ability to help a few people.

i also feel weird and guilty for having a support system, having the freedom to express myself, being able to enjoy humor, being mostly physically healthy (tho i still have body image problems), not having an eating disorder and being in a peaceful, “perfect” town. i feel undeserving of this, as so many others dont get those. im grateful for what i have but it still feels so weird when others dont have nearly the freedom to expression and other things.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=vDkHR80rNtw&pp=ygUZYm9hcmRzIG9mIGNhbmFkYSBnZW9nYWRkaQ%3D%3D