I also feel like I swing between the two a lot. I don't really know how to stay in a positive headspace for a lengthy period of time myself, but please keep going. Keep trying. Over time, you will figure more things out about life and yourself, and things will begin to make more sense. You be kind to yourself
MrEdgyBlue
I kind of relate to this. sometimes i feel useless and hopeless. i feel I'm never going to improve and i just suck at everything. Stay strong, hope things get better for you ^ ^