KhaosKitsune617 2024-05-02 19:05:08

i just want to feel better again.

KhaosKitsune617 2024-05-02 19:05:33

also btw, my newer vent art will be more messed up than my others. something like the claudia art but worse

CasperTheRamKnight 2024-05-03 08:59:11

dang

SolidSnakeOnAPlane 2024-05-03 09:29:22

I hope you get better. I sure know that feeling. I too feel like the only way to succeed in life is by becoming evil at times and I fear that despite I’m actually a very good person that I might end up turning evil someday. Just not sure when it will happen. I sure don’t want it to happen but I want to succeed as well. I’m currently trying to stay a good person. And will continue doing so.

KhaosKitsune617 2024-05-03 11:22:15

what if non-puppet females with autism are just made to suffer and be mocked?

KhaosKitsune617 2024-05-03 12:22:39

i think im going crazy. i’m thinking about dropping out of school or at least neglecting my homework so i can feel less stressed. i think dropping out is way too far. maybe skipping some classes?

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KhaosKitsune617 2024-05-04 12:52:23

i dont have any real purpose. an ai can do things way better than me. i wish i was replaced by one at times

TheBestBroster 2024-05-18 00:17:13

Hey there, I'm autistic too. I have spent years with really poor mental health because of how autism and ADHD have affected my life.

I have never felt like I belonged anywhere in the world. I have worried about whether I would be taken advantage of and hurt by the world around me too. Navigating society on my own feels damn near impossible. Even though I'm labeled as "High Functioning".

You don't deserve to feel this way. Please know that. And I understand what you mean by thinking you either have to turn evil or be a slave. The autistic experience in this world basically teaches you to either:

1. Become a slave and mask yourself into oblivion. Forgetting who you are and repressing your feelings and ignoring your own needs, wants, and boundaries because society refuses to understand or accommodate for those who don't fit into a neat little cookie-cutter idea of what a person 'should' be like. And eventually you lose yourself entirely to a slow death from the inside out.

2. Become evil and 'burn down the village to feel its warmth' so to speak. Feeling betrayed and let down by the cold, uncaring world around you, it can feel quite reasonable at times to want to enact revenge.

Both of these are awful ways to live, as one leads to you mainly harming yourself and the other is mainly harming others.

I know that it is really damn difficult living like this, but please treat yourself kindly. Forgive yourself and pursue your passions with all you've got.

You're not alone.

TheBestBroster 2024-05-18 14:43:54

@KhaosKitsune617 Oh yeah, I totally get that. :(

Hey, I know I'm just some random guy so you dont have to if you dont wanna, but if you would want someone to talk to, I'm willing to listen and help you if I can. I hate seeing another autistic person feeling so bad.

TheBestBroster 2024-05-22 13:27:22

@KhaosKitsune617 Oh god I hate that shit. People don't even understand what autism is, let alone what causes it. My comeback to that is always "What about the millions of people who are vaccinated and didn't end up autistic?".

TheBestBroster 2024-05-23 00:46:52

@KhaosKitsune617 Cool, I'll check it out when its up :)

KhaosKitsune617 2024-05-29 09:29:34

i kinda feel happy ai is taking over. i kinda want my talent to be stolen, and for me to lose my identity, because i dont have any purpise. i wouldnt mind a fake world if there is no joy in any.

KhaosKitsune617 2024-06-02 14:39:55

will i eventually have to give up what i stand for to live past 30?

KhaosKitsune617 2024-06-16 11:55:58

i am clincally insane