say anything here uwu

Here’s some weird and underrated music

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=C3L3G8c3tw8&list=PL67617C09D64FE6A8&index=3&pp=iAQB8AUB

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=GHngFONMc90&t=146s&pp=ygUaZ3Jvb3Z5IGFhcmR2YXJrIGZhc3QgdGltZXM%3D

i get this isnt that different from my usual vent posts, i struggle with shit about the world and myself, but recently its been very repetitive, and has been hurting me for a while. i keep having repetitive thoughts and fears about me being kicked out of school/home, ending up homeless, being murdered, and even some other thoughts which i will not get into because i dont want to scare anyone.

unlike earlier situations, its been a lot more repeititve, i've been having them around 2-5 times every few days, and even realizing my safety, sexurity, and the rarity of those tragedies doesnt help anymore. i need to come to terms that my autism makes me weak but wont make me a target all the time.

also, i keep feeling like i will eventually have to turn to evil to progress in this world, or i will have to live as like a slave to society. there is not really a middle ground, especially with the future being more hateful. eventually, my loved ones will shun me. i know it.

self explanatory.

i have a lot of fears, like losing identity

and losing my talents to others that may be too personal.

weirdcore stuff i made for fun. im sorry if the last post made u worried

https://picrew.me/share?cd=yUpHlXOKhN